A special young man yes he is,
The eldest position is his.
He holds it with care,
Kind, loving, and fair,
A good example to eight younger kids.
So, Levi, after 19 years you are still the guinea pig. You were the guinea pig as a newborn, you were the guinea pig as a toddler, you were still the guinea pig as a preschooler, as an elementary student, as a teenager, and now as an almost-twenty-year-old! I sure hope you’re used to it by now, because it’s not likely to ever change! Not that we have it all figured out at each of those stages, oh my no. But we have made quite enough mistakes that there are at least a few things we know not to do, even if many times we still don’t know exactly what it is that we really should do - - - thankfully we have a Loving Heavenly Father who wants to help us if we ask Him, and that we do quite often. So in spite of our mistakes and failures, we give God all the glory for shaping you into the fine young man you have become. With your many different jobs, interests, abilities, and activities, you have quite a few big roles to fill; with God’s help we are so blessed to see you making good choices in filling those roles.
But I’m getting quite ahead of myself.
This is your birthday post where I do a review of your life, and as you have the longest life (and the most abnormal too, for that matter) of our kids, this has the potential to be quite long. Please bear with me and enjoy remembering your life!
So as first time expectant parents, Dad & I didn’t know what to expect when Levi was born, even though we went through the childbirth classes and did the exercises, etc. We were not prepared like we could have been, but we were the best prepared that we knew at the time. Levi was born with a few complications at birth, one being jaundice which put him back in the hospital for a few days – not a fun thing for a new mommy who had just recovered from giving birth and enduring a punctured epidural sac and its subsequent spinal headache. NOT fun memories. We lived in an old country farmhouse at the time, and the not-so-reliable furnace gave out a couple times during those first few weeks as well, making things all the more interesting. Oh, and I forgot to mention that Dad was dog-sick (flu, fever) during Levi’s labor and birth. Aah, the memories. But Levi survived the trauma of his early days, and brought us much joy as we settled into life as parents. When he was three months old, we bought and moved to a house in Morton; other than that his first year was pretty normal as far as babies go. Things started to go abnormal on the day before his first birthday, and his life hasn’t been normal since. After a horrible month of doctor’s visits and tests, they sent us to the hospital for a test that would rule out a rare disease that I didn’t even catch the name of. Well, a long two minutes into the test, suddenly the room was filled with many people which as we soon learned was NOT a good thing. He was diagnosed with this rare thing called Kawasaki Disease which at its worst can damage the victim’s heart; Levi not only had a damaged heart, but his heart was at the worst possible damage level for this disease. Whew. What a road we were on, and still are. Promptly admitted to PICU for two weeks, Levi was sedated (as in he wasn’t really awake for much of that two weeks). Not fun, not fun at all. But God is faithful, and we all survived with victory, and we attained a new normal, a normal that now included daily medications and frequent doctor appointments and various medical tests. Then. I will never forget the details of August of 1994, but I won’t get into all that here because one, I already wrote it out in his baby book, and two, it’s pretty long and this will be plenty long enough by the time this tale is told. But anyway, our new normal changed yet again when Levi had an MI when he was 18 months old. Rather than write it all out again, I’m going to copy this from Jesse’s birthday post.
Back then we were told it was a heart attack. We’ve learned since it’s actually called an MI, or Myocardial Infarction (an area of tissue that has recently died as a result of the sudden loss of its blood supply, e.g. following blockage of an artery by a blood clot – Encarta Dictionary). Levi was in PICU for two weeks while his doctors tried to evaluate the damage done and decide how to treat it. His doctors were struggling to find the right balance of meds to help his damaged heart (one-fourth of his left ventricle (main pumping muscle) was destroyed), and consequently about every few weeks he was back in the hospital with heart failure. Or asthma, we weren’t sure which. His cardiologist was and is convinced to this day that it was heart failure, and his pulmonologist was just as convinced that it was asthma. So we were doing lasix and lanoxin and a few other medicines besides, and all those breathing treatments – every four hours, rain or shine. Meanwhile, I was very pregnant with Jesse. Levi’s health was unstable, I was very big, weary, and uncomfortable, and Dad was adjusting to a new job which is always a challenge. And we were young. Very young. Boy, looking back, it’s hard to fathom how young we were. Young in life, young in faith, young in marriage, young in parenting. Of course even now we are still young in the big picture, but 17 years ago we were, well, really young. Of course our struggles were nothing like those who deal with cancer, other fatal diseases, losing a loved one, or other bigger life challenges, but at the time…. well, it wasn’t a walk in the park. But God is faithful and saw us through, meeting our every need and blessing us in so many ways in the midst of the struggles and stress. We serve a big God, and He isn’t limited by our weaknesses – indeed our strength is made perfect in weakness. So on October 6 (Jesse was due on October 3), we checked Levi out of the hospital after yet another bout with heart failure, and got home to our little house in Morton which we so enjoyed.
So things finally stabilized as much as they could with a little guy with a damaged heart and asthma or whatever it was we were dealing with. We moved here to the farm when Levi was almost four, Jesse was two, and Tori was six months old. Levi loved it out here, as we all did. He was about five when we noticed him limping all the time; a few doctor visits and tests later, and he was scheduled for a routine surgery on his heel which went like expected, and he was back to his normal activity a few months later. That fall he started kindergarten, and he did not like it one bit. Every day was a challenge to get him on the bus, and plus he was struggling to learn as well. We inquired as to what help he was going to be given (this was in October), and were told that when he started first grade, he would qualify for extra help. Eleven months of falling behind did not impress us at all; I started teaching him afternoons right away and, with daily one-on-one phonics drill and activities (about 30 minutes worth), Levi caught up with his class and was almost reading by Christmas. Meanwhile, he still dreaded school, and we started wondering why we were sending him; we started researching that strange and rare phenomenon called homeschooling. We only knew of three families that homeschooled at the time, and we didn’t know any of them very well – what we did know was that they were considered . . . kind of. . . well . . . different :). Many prayers and research and study and talking and prayers later, we took the plunge and pulled Levi out of public school after Christmas. We’ve been in love with homeschooling ever since and praise God daily for giving us the freedom to teach our children as He has called us to do. And Levi always did fine in his schoolwork, although it was never easy and he never did like it (much like one of his certain older cousins who is also a very fine young man in spite of his dislike for all things academic!). Life moved on, filled with schoolwork, farm jobs, and all the busy activities of a growing young boy with a houseful of siblings always ready to follow his lead. Work abounded, but so did play and lots of fun, of course with the ever-present medications and medical monitorings going on occasionally too. Which led to a CABG in May of 2002, when he was about nine and a half years old (for you non-medical people, that’s a Coronary Artery Bypass Graft, otherwise known as open heart surgery, or bypass surgery). His RCA (Right Coronary Artery; one of the two arteries that supplied his heart with oxygen) was gradually closing; bypass was necessary to prevent another MI when it would completely close. His little brother Benjamin was six weeks old at the time, and again it really wasn’t a great time to remember. A lot of stress, and probably more worry than I should have had; keeping a nine-year-old off bikes and trampoline and everything else fun wasn’t that fun or easy. Plus there were other complications post-surgery that added challenge; but again, our Faithful and Ever-loving Father God carried us through, and we learned much about trusting Him during those difficult days. I cannot begin to fathom going through something like that without the strength of our Lord Jesus Christ, and without the prayers of those that love us. It was a difficult time, but it was a growing time too. We learned much, not the least of which is God’s faithfulness to His children. Truly we serve an awesome God.
Well, that was almost ten years ago, and aside from a few minor scares here and there, life has been blissfully boring as far as Levi’s health. He is monitored annually, as they expect his LCA to close up eventually too; that will require some sort of medical intervention but we’re not worrying about that as it hasn’t happened yet. Meanwhile, he has had a completely normal active life and we praise God for the miracle that has given Levi to us for so long, when there was a time where they kept us at the hospital overnight because they didn’t know if he would live through the night. Some people may say miracles don’t happen, but they are wrong. Levi is a miracle.
It was a few years after the CABG when Levi started talking to us about his soul’s salvation; he just wasn’t sure if he was saved or not. He knew what the Bible said about unrepentant sinners, and he knew he hadn’t repented for his sins. For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God. Romans 3:23 But the wages of sin is death. Romans 6:23 For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten son, that whosoever believeth in him shall not perish, but have everlasting life. For God sent not his Son into the world to condemn the world, but that the world through him might be saved. He that believeth on him is not condemned, but he that believeth not is condemned already, because he hath not believed in the name of the only begotten Son of God. John 3:16-18. So although his heart was always turned toward God and His will in his life, Levi didn’t make a public declaration of repentance until September of 2005, when he was twelve years old; we rejoiced with him when he was baptized on a wonderful day in January 2008.
Re-reading this text (yes it’s long but how to shorten it?), I see several times where I’ve written “it was a difficult time,” “it wasn’t a walk in the park,” “a lot of stress,” and so on. Don’t think that this poor kid knows nothing but suffering and doctor’s visits – oh my no, that couldn’t be further from the truth. In between the difficult times, his energy and enthusiasm for life has kept us on our knees and on our toes at the same time. He was a normal active kid with normal kid activities which included but were not limited to bovine chores, schoolwork, four-wheeler rides, swimming at Uncle Jerry’s, sledding, making fence, painting sheds, trampoline fun, and lots of soccer, basketball, & baseball games here at home with us. (Competitive sports weren’t ever an option, because when his body said stop he had to stop – not possible with organized team sports. But that was no big deal, because Dad was never in sports anyway and they were never a part of our lives). Many people who know Levi have no idea that his heart has such major damage to it and that at one time he was such a sick little boy. For the most part he’s just like our other kids. True, his medical challenges have maybe made us more protective than we would otherwise have been, but who says that’s all bad? And, we have not ever and do not ever take our daily health or any of our children’s health for granted. Neither do we take our children for granted; we appreciate each and every one of them and praise God for giving us the perfect family that He created for us. In all thy ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct thy paths. Proverbs 3:6
So today Levi is 19. He graduated from Meadowview Christian Academy a year ago this month; his transcript is ready to go if ever he would decide to pursue further education, although it is certainly fine and wonderful if he doesn’t. He loves all of his jobs and is always ready to tell us all about his day when he gets home; although oftentimes his youngest brother is hounding him to play the minute he walks in the door! He manages to fit in a few young group activities now and then also, but we’re glad when he stays home because he has a lot of little people who admire him greatly and love to spend time with him (us big people do too, for that matter).
Thank you Levi for the love you have for your Lord, the concern and care you demonstrate toward your younger siblings (usually, that is), the love & respect you have for Dad & me, and the humble, teachable spirit you have which makes you a favorite of many people you meet and work with. May God continue to bless you as you follow His leading in your life; and may He use you as He wills to further His work of sharing His love with others. We love you and are so glad God put you in our family.
Precious baby -
Sweet little boy with such big problems -
Handsome young man.
Happy Birthday, Levi!